Just writing...

In my 23 years of existence, I just started to realize that life indeed was beautiful. It may not give you everything that you want but it will show you all you need to learn.

I was never born a writer. I'm a girl with a simple mind. I may not be able to speak the language of politics or current events but I'm a girl who speaks my own opinion.

Today I want to tell the whole world how lucky I was. I never won the lottery. I may not have all the riches in the world. But I'm proud that I have a loving family, supportive and trusted friends and of course I love my job. I may have failed with my past relationship but I learned from it. I became a stronger person. Being single was fun. I was able to travel to almost a lot of tourist spot and I was able to buy everything that I want.

Change is constant. They say a man will never be contented with his life. I guess I will not oppose to that statement. It's alright to dream. Dream high. Just make sure at every step of your way you never failed to look back to those people who molded the real you.

I'm still young. I have a lot of dreams. I am just starting. I still want to buy my own house and car. Get married and have a family of my own. Travel around the world. Explore everything the vast universe can offer. As I walk to this dream, I want to thank all of you. Yes! You... we may be friends, enemies, relatives, not-so friends, co-worker but indeed you once touched my life. Ü

It’s “aaRDee” day!

Finally! It’s my rest day. I had a hard week. I just started my diet a week ago. Haha! Funny! But it’s true. Fruit Diet! Less Carbo! And I’m damn serious. Why? Not for anybody but for myself… I’m looking forward to look great on the 12^th of September. What for? Hmmm… it’s a sweet little secret.

But finally it’s over. During rest days, I’m allowing myself to have 3-4 tablespoon of rice or have a small pack of junk food. No more sweets. Maybe… not for now.

I’m looking forward for a new week. New set of responsibilities. Diet recipes to try and a lot more weighing! FYI! I just lost 2 pounds… that is if I’m right. =D

Super X-GF Review

It's a long day for me. I woke up early this morning because I slept 3:00pm last Saturday and I'm just too lazy to wake up. I went to Mass and did the laundry today. Sit back to my pc and kept browsing the whole day. I went to sleep at 1pm and I didn't thought it was 5:30pm already. So bottom line... I did get enough sleep that's why I'm having a hard time getting one tonight.


To get my self sleepy, I just watched Super X-Girlfriend. It was a normal film I should say. But what made me write about it? Maybe because I was once an ex-girlfriend. I just asked myself did I do the same mistakes she did. Maybe I did a different way to try to win my ex back but luckily it didn't work out. Lucky? YES! Cause I can't imagine myself with him at this point of my life. Why? Because I realized I deserve someone better and the fact that I know his happy right now.


Second thing that caught my attention was the way the lead actor broke up with his girl. It sounds familiar. As if it was the same line. It's not that it's the same words but same reasoning. I was the first one to break up with my ex. Just to say that I still have my pride. But during our last month together I was hearing some same reasoning from him. That we should give ourselves same space. That it was him who's having issues and not me. Same old excuses!


But above all I noticed that the movie was right. It was true. That after a break up you will only forget once you met the one who will make your heart whole again. Someone who will make you smile. Time heals all wound. Regardless how deep is the cut. I found a guy who made me smile after the break up but then again I lost him. But I keep on smiling again. Not because I met again another Romeo but because I've proven myself that I was strong. Each day I loved finding something new about myself, my goals, and my plans.


Being an X-girlfriend does not mean your a loser or you have failed. It only proves that in this world there is only ONE right man waiting for you. And it's the one from God. So why look? If all you have to do is enjoy, have fun and wait for the right one! Ü

Late Bloomer Blogger

I had a hard time thinking of a name that will fit my personality. I woke up 3:30 am and started browsing and looking for a cool name til 5:30 am this morning.

I was excited to create my own blogspot. I think it's so cool! But I'm kinda sad since I'm a late bloomer blogger. hahaha!

But it doesn't matter... cause I had started something new today.

Be safe!

Who stole my Magic?

Yesterday my co-worker lend me a book about heartaches and break ups. I was indeed excited to read about it since I know I can relate to the stories on the book. Not because I just broke up with somebody recently but let's just say I'm still feeling hurt when I do remember my past love.

I left my office 8:30 am and went straight to the bank to pay my bills. I was three hour late going home since my shift ends at 6am. Our team also had a meeting and we just signed a contract that binds us to our account for 6 months. Not to mention a 1k increase in our salary provided that we pass our quarterly exam. To continue, I was so excited to read the book that I even started reading while I was on my way home. I admit I see myself smiling everytime I read a story like mine. As if I'm the main character on the book.

I was only hurt twice. Or let say thrice but the first one was not really considered since it's just a puppy love. But I admit I had fights with my bestfriend during my high school days.

The first major time I was hurt was when I had my boyfriend for 16 months. It was a breakup that really left me crying for months. I'm just starting my work with Sitel back then. I can still remember my shift starts at 12am and ends 9am in the morning. The day I broke up with my ex I was awake for 3 straight days. That was the worst feeling I ever had. No peace of mind. My heart swelling in pain. The urge of calling and seeing him. The fact that he left me for his teacher was insane! I even told my friend a joke that my last name was "maestro" and that means I'm also a teacher. Funny huh?! But he was the guy I loved most in my life. He taught me how to love and be loved in return. But it ended in a sad way. Maybe he's not really meant for me. Last thing I heard from him was that he was getting married with the girl. Her mom even invited me to see their wedding. Like duh?! Who wants to see the guy you love saying "I do" to the girl who stole him from you? But my bitterness was all gone. I learned a lot from my heartaches from him. I was stronger than before.

5months after I broke up with my ex, I realized I was falling for another guy. This guy was the recent guy who gave me a punch in my heart. Not because we broke up, since there was never really an "US" story, but because I was there when he broke up with her girl and until now that she has a new gf. It was wonderful during the start. It was always a kilig moment when I was with him. I thought he was different from my ex. He was gentleman. Loyal. Loves his family so much and he's into sports. He was indeed an ideal guy. If I loved my ex 101%, I loved this recent guy 80%. Not because I loved my ex more but because during those time I started loving myself.

But how did I love thee? Let me count the ways... Though, I loved my ex more, I'm not sure if you're going to believe me on what I did the for the sake of love with this guy. Believe me or not I went to Baclaran and prayed the novena for 2 years. Yes, for two years! 2 years of consecutive Wednesdays! Rain or Shine! I asked Mama Mary if I could win my guy's love but I was wrong. I keep on telling myself it was a "NOT NOW" but I guess her answer was a clear "NO". I kept listening to all his stories about his girls, though it's wounding my heart. Everytime I checked my account, I was always checking on his page. Any details about his girl makes me cry. But still I keep on checking his page. I was even called "martyr" by my friends. I'm a fool indeed. But that made me strong through the years.

I don't want to be plastic. Of course, deep inside my heart I hoped that my love will be returned. But that didn't happen. He just sees me as a friend. That's ok. I learned how to love unconditionally. Believe me I loved him with all respect. I respected him as a person and I respected his decision. I want him to be happy and so be it. I let go of my illusion,,,FINALLY!

To end my story short, the book was right. Never listen to any sad songs, never call him when you want to, never look back, go on a vacation, try something new, engage yourself to new things, cry out loud! This worked for me for a while... hmmm... I guess not only for a while... cause I can say I moved on... I was not crying myself to sleep at night anymore... I still remember I wrote in my last blog that I was bitter no more. Yes! I am not... hahahha... Finally!

"sometimes, you have to try not to care no matter how much you do. Because sometimes, you can mean nothing to someone who means everything to you..."

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