It's been a while since I last cried. I was buzzed by a friend early this morning. He was my best friend that I really missed. Circumstances according to him changed the man I used to hang out with. Maybe, he's correct. He had a girlfriend and he was promoted. We don't have any bonding time anymore. I was never busy but he is. But I can't blame him. He became a manager. I sure know that he got lot of things to do. He also has a girlfriend that he needs to give time to.
Why the heck did I cry? It's because I was looking for him the time I was so down. I was looking for someone to listen. I tried to tell him through our emails but he was sick. I felt I was not remembered. As if I was a nobody.
Last Friday, we hanged out by accident. He had a reunion. I did not speak with him since I don't know what to say or why say something if I know he wouldn't listen. He used to tease me that I'm a pig. I lost weight and I was promoted. He told me that it's a good thing for me. That I should get over on what I had with the past. Something he always reminds me.
At the end of the conversation, there was a realization... That you cannot demand from a friend. There may be times where the only thing you can do was to UNDERSTAND. I knew him more than anyone does. He doesn’t want to get into serious conversation. But I all let it out. I nagged him. He was telling me that I'm rubbing it on him. I did, because it's all true. But at the other side of the road, I realized that I also had some mistakes. Both of us are only persons capable of committing mistakes... He might have changed because of the circumstances he's in. I might changed, who knows. The tears cleared all the pain I was hiding.
I know we're still good friends. If ever he's reading this, hey you, I'm sorry! You're such a pig! Heheheh... Miss you bogs!
