Bitter Butter!

Yeah! I admit it! I'm still bitter. I still love him. Why can't I just moved on... There's a lot of guys who are more handsome than him. Single and trust worthy... But why can't I get over him... Maybe because I still love him... Damn! Behind those smiles... lies the real me... a girl who only loved one guy. Years have passed... but I'm so damn not to realized I'm waiting for forever! There's no second chance... There's no looking back. But here I am... still waiting... still wishing... A part of me I wish I could change.

= c

-anonymous

In Tears...

It's been a while since I last cried. I was buzzed by a friend early this morning. He was my best friend that I really missed. Circumstances according to him changed the man I used to hang out with. Maybe, he's correct. He had a girlfriend and he was promoted. We don't have any bonding time anymore. I was never busy but he is. But I can't blame him. He became a manager. I sure know that he got lot of things to do. He also has a girlfriend that he needs to give time to.

Why the heck did I cry? It's because I was looking for him the time I was so down. I was looking for someone to listen. I tried to tell him through our emails but he was sick. I felt I was not remembered. As if I was a nobody.

Last Friday, we hanged out by accident. He had a reunion. I did not speak with him since I don't know what to say or why say something if I know he wouldn't listen. He used to tease me that I'm a pig. I lost weight and I was promoted. He told me that it's a good thing for me. That I should get over on what I had with the past. Something he always reminds me.

At the end of the conversation, there was a realization... That you cannot demand from a friend. There may be times where the only thing you can do was to UNDERSTAND. I knew him more than anyone does. He doesn’t want to get into serious conversation. But I all let it out. I nagged him. He was telling me that I'm rubbing it on him. I did, because it's all true. But at the other side of the road, I realized that I also had some mistakes. Both of us are only persons capable of committing mistakes... He might have changed because of the circumstances he's in. I might changed, who knows. The tears cleared all the pain I was hiding.

I know we're still good friends. If ever he's reading this, hey you, I'm sorry! You're such a pig! Heheheh... Miss you bogs!

Just My LUCK!

Everything is doing well on my end. I don't know how to thank GOD for all the good things that are happening to me at this point in my life.

I'm kinda experimenting on myself for the past few weeks. I’m trying to add a little spice in my life. ;p I'm enjoying it cause I now everyday has a new surprise that awaits me.

Last Friday morning, I was shocked with the news that my manager told me. I will be starting on a different account soon. This time it’s really different. It’s a different field. Different post. Cool! It’s not easy because I'll be leaving the account I used to work for 2 years. I will leave the people who have touched my life. I'll be starting a new career on a different environment. But it really excites me! It will be a new world for me. I know He has better plans for me.

Well, I guess it was just my LUCK! ;p I only have 3 weeks to go... I guess it was true... you can only get the better ones if you first learn to put the old things down. Let go and trust Him. I just did! =D